I have been recently reading and responding to a really enjoyable blog called CHRONICLES OF AN ANGLO SWISS at https://angloswiss-chronicles.com/ .
This morning she had a grand post about routine and the effects of having it disrupted. I found that to be so correct and so much a part of my life I was inspired to write a post of my morning and the disruption of my routine.
For those who are not aware I am disabled by muscle / nerve / bone problems and also several syndromes and a few simply named ones like anemia. The descriptions take longer than the names. I can not remember a lot of stuff due to both the problems I have and the medications I must take. Poor Ron has the unthankful job of either reminding me, correcting me when I get it wrong or seeing that I understand my requirements, medications, and the times and dosages. There are other things he has to remind me of or remember for me But I forget. 🙂
My normal morning routine is to wake about 6:30 in the morning. I think take the six non pain morning medications I must take. Then I go back to sleep until about 8 AM. At that time I take my first set of pain medications : 2 types of Morphine’s, Baclofen muscle relaxers, 800 MG Ibuprofen, Tramadol. I take these medications and then stay in bed for between 1 & 1/2 hours to 2 hours while they take affect. During this time I use my IPad to read news, read books, watch TV shows or movies, and now that I have the new wonderful keyboard I do email and the blogs I follow daily. I use to have them all bookmarked but I can’t seem to find where I had them all and so now I depend on the emails I get about new posts. If I use to got to your blog and seems like I have not been there in a while that you have been posting, please drop me an email to let me know including the link to your blog. Thanks.
Then the morning get ready stuff including Shave/Shower/Dress. Make coffee in the kitchen then shuffle the few steps to my office. There I turn on the computers, lights, light candles, give the cats treats and settle in. First I set the video computer (24 inch HD screen, ) to the first of my many morning news shows, The daily show followed in order by Hardball, Chris Hayes, Rachel Maddow, Lawrence O’Donnell, and lastly YouTube for all the channels I follow. While they play I get my coffee now made and turn on twitter on the main computer ( 24 inch HD screen ) and start with my first few web sites I hit. These are funny sites I don’t leave comments at. The are mostly comics or opinion sites.
Now I am on my second cup of coffee and ready to start my serious day of blogging. I have come to depend on my email to send me to the blogs, and to tell me of comments. I like to read the blogs, read the comments, make a comment, and setting the page to email me when new comments are made. This takes time. More emails come in than I can get to normal, but I am having fun and I really feel part of the community. For me reading the blogs I get new information, I learn stuff. Plus in the comments I feel I am part of the conversation, not just stuck in a room in my house all day most days. I love it. I will get sore and tired and feeling the effects of the medications I take all day. SO sometimes I understand the pages well and can interact well. Sometimes I get confused or totally misunderstand totally. I recently had a conversation with a person on Arks blog I was getting frustrated with. The person I was talking with was also getting frustrating. I kept going back over what we both wrote to see what I was missing. Then it hit me. It dawned on me I at least was misreading what she was trying to say. The meanings she was trying to convey using certain words I was get a different meaning reading those same words. We were both hung up trying to get the other to see what was clear to each of us, but we were not understanding the word usage of the other, at least it seemed that way to me after trying to look at it carefully. I said as much and then went to bed. I never feel I have to be totally 100 percent correct and others always wrong. That is silly.
So that is a basic rundown of my day. I started this about routine and that is my basic routine for my day. Now as to what happens when that is disrupted is like this morning. I get frazzled and upset. depending on how bad a disruption I get emotionally out of sorts. This morning we had to go to the lawyers. Plus I was late waking up. I did not take my morning medications which caused me problems later in the morning. I woke up late, started to read, and Ron woke up and told me we had to rush to get to the lawyers on time. I had not had coffee, and my meds had not kicked in, so Ron made and brought me coffee before getting his shower. As soon as he was done I went to get mine. As I was drying off Ron told me we had about 10 minutes before we had to go. I was upset. It takes me longer than that to get dressed and stuff. But I hurried as fast as possible. I was getting things wrong and forgetting things. Thankfully Ron was calm and reminded me of what I needed. He got me into the car and off we went. I thought I was doing well, but I was already in a lot of pain. Turns out I was more confused and unsettled than I thought. First thing me and our lawyer got into an argument. I felt she was being argumentative, which is normal for a lawyer. I interrupted her, turned to Ron and asked him why she was being so argumentative, which set her off again. Ron calmed both of us down. She was just going to fast for me, and was not understanding my answers, I was not connecting what she was saying properly thinking she was trying to argue with me about everything when she was really trying to show me how the Judge would ask questions and what kind of answers he would expect. This should go smooth but I really wish Ron could answer all the questions instead of me, but they have to hear me say I don’t remember or I don’t know before they can ask Ron. By the time we left I was in a serious amount of pain, had taken four more morphine’s and two muscle relaxers, was very tired, very confused, and wanting the whole thing to end. I even missed the lawyer trying to shake my hand when we went to leave, Ron had to remind me, everyone was laughing and the lawyer was trying to make fun of it. When we got home I sat in my office while Ron made me lunch and coffee. Now I am feel good again as I am in my office blogging, the cats are on my desk, Ron is in bed sleeping for work tonight, and I feel comfortable again. I guess that is the real problem, when my routine is disturbed, I don’t feel comfortable and feel like everything is wrong.
So while nothing really bad happened today and nothing ever really does if my morning routine is messed with, it does upset me and throws me off my game plan. I don’t seem to connect right with everything. I feel like I am out of step with the world and the people in it. Thankfully Ron is right with me when it happens so I am always safe and OK. I mostly have my daily routine without interruption. Thanks for reading. As always feel free to comment on anything I post. I wish everyone the best. Hugs