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October 6, 2019

R.E.M. – Everybody Hurts

Tony of posted this with a personal message at .   I think it is how I feel most of the time also.   Hugs

September 27, 2019

THE GRETA THUNBERG HELPLINE: For adults angry at a child.

September 24, 2019

Bill Withers – Lean On Me

I spent about 2 hours today crying, breath ceasing red faced tears running down my face.  I hurt.  I hurt from the memories I have.  I can not change them, the past is what it is.  I am very lucky I do have an out.  I could have gone to the bedroom and gotten Ron.  I have a wonderful adoptive brother, something I never had during my  childhood when I was being abused,  he works long hard hours but he keeps his phone on for me even when he gets his few hours of sleep.  When I was so depressed and upset back in 2014 /2015 I was back to self harming my self ( something I still want to do some days ) he would call me every 4 to 8 hours to make sure I was OK.  That is family .  Something I never had growing up.  One of the persons I grew up with use to laugh at me being a 5  / 6 year old sitting alone on a embankment asking “why it was always me”.   She never released what she thought was funny was really an indictment of what she and others were doing to me.  I was already being sexually abused and beaten.  “Why was it always me”, asks a five / six year old?  That should have raised questions everywhere.  When in 1st grade the school pressed charges of child abuse ( I have written of this before ) the people I lived with took me out of school, then moved to a different state, then moved a gain in a few months to another town in a first state.  This was in the 1960’s.  There was no follow up, even though I had been taken to the local hospital and examined.   It was if no questions had been raised, and the abuse continued.  So today  the memories make me cry.  Hugs

Bill Withers – Lean On Me

September 11, 2019

California church leaders charged with forced labor of homeless, US attorney says

Filed under: Criminal, Dealing With Abuse, Economics, Greed, Harm, News, Questions, Religion — Scottie @ 09:19

Imperial Valley Ministries leaders recruited people by promising food and shelter, and instead forced them to beg for money for nine hours a day, six days a week and to give up their welfare benefits “for the financial benefit of the church leaders,” prosecutors said in a news release Tuesday that announced the indictment had been unsealed.

“The indictment alleges an appalling abuse of power by church officials who preyed on vulnerable homeless people with promises of a warm bed and meals,” Brewer said. “These victims were held captive, stripped of their humble financial means, their identification, their freedom and their dignity.”
The indictment alleges church leaders kept victims inside group homes with deadbolt locks only they had keys to and confiscated IDs such as driver’s licenses, immigration papers and passports to prevent victims from escaping.
One victim was a 17-year-old girl who escaped by breaking out of a window, Brewer said. She went to the police, he said.
More information and examples of the abuse the church made these people suffer at the link above.   Religion has always been about controlling others and moving money from the base to the religious leaders.   Hugs

September 10, 2019

A Christian Victim of Female Genital Mutilation Wants KY to Criminalize It

This is some of what I mean by Religion harms children.   Remember this is happening in the US and a judge recently allowed it.  I just posted about the woman in the UK who basically kidnapped a little boy and took him to be circumcised against the parents wishes because of her Christian beliefs, and the judge gave her a small fine because of her faith.  Mutilating children’s genitals because adults are scared of sex has to stop.  It needs to be a serious crime because the child will have to deal with the effects all their life.  It is a life long sentence and so the people doing it need a serious punishment.    As always more at the link below.   Hugs

A Christian Victim of Female Genital Mutilation Wants KY to Criminalize It

Here are some uncomfortable truths: Female genital mutilation occurs. It’s a crisis. It’s almost entirely faith-based. And it’s not limited to Islamic nations. The Centers for Disease Control and Prevention found in 2016 that 513,000 girls and women in the United States were at risk for being cut or mutilated.

Just last year, a federal judge dismissed most of the charges against a Michigan doctor, Jumana Nagarwala, who allegedly mutilated more than 100 girls, on a technicality. He said that federal law prohibiting the practice was unconstitutional, as despicable as FGM is, due to a technicality in the way the law was written. (The doctor hasn’t been cleared of everything; she could still receive jail time.)

Perhaps the most shocking thing about Julie’s testimony was finding out she isn’t Muslim, as she explained in a joint essay for the Courier-Journal:

Born and raised in a white, Christian household in the United States, I (Jennifer) was sent on a long plane ride by my parents for a “special trip.” As a 5-year-old, I was led down dark stairs by strangers, held down, and my mouth covered. Without anesthesia, I was cut.

Every day I am reminded of the emotional and physical consequences of being cut. Though I can’t change what happened to me, there is something that drives my passion to get an anti-female genital mutilation bill passed in Kentucky: my daughters. Unfortunately, I have family members who still subscribe to this practice and believe it must be performed to control the sexuality of women and girls. As long as there is no law banning female genital mutilation in Kentucky, my daughters remain at risk of being subjected to the trauma of this practice.

August 13, 2019

Let’s talk about socially conditioned responses to domestic violence….

I think most of the people who come here know I was abused and lived in constant fear of the huge ( to a little boy and most men ) brute that terrorized my life.   But while I took the brunt of his abuse he also made clear his position to even his own brood.  He was the alpha in charge of the house and he would back it up with violence.  I seen him rip a door of the hinges to his daughters room because she pissed him off.  He did so by punching his fist right through the door.  

I want to point out that the video has a really good message.  If you really want to help the victim, get them out of the situation.  Many people in my little cow town knew I was being abused, and many offered what comfort they could.  But none of them tried to take me out of the abuse.  

Which leads me to the point Beau makes.  When I was about 13 or 14 I was working for a local family who had a basket weaving shop.  It was a big business.  The man who ran it was a 6 foot something ex-marine.   They were friends with my adoptive parents and had even bought me clothing when I really need it.  I was happy to work in the shop and felt welcome if  awkward there.    One afternoon my adoptive father came into the shop angry, found me and started hitting me and beating me up.  I to this day do not know how he knew or who ran and told him but Dave the owner showed up and went into combat mode.  As his wife grabbed me and tried to take me out of there I seen most of the fight.  Francis was short but stock and hugely muscled and a brawler, Dave was an marine who had seen combat and younger.  For the first time in my life I felt so happy with joy, someone had stood up for me.  I was not alone, I was going to be safe.  Surely after that fight he wouldn’t hurt me any more!

The truth was he never hurt me in front of Dave again.  But when I got home that afternoon Dave was not there.  There was no big former marine to defend me.  I was a small scrawny kid facing a brawler that had gotten the bad end of a fight.  Some one needed to pay for that, and I did.  I wont describe what happened, I think you all can guess. I will only say it was bad.  Really bad.  

Thinking you can play the hero and stand up for the abused is great, if you plan on being there day and night until the abuser is gone, never to come back.  But doing it once in a store or in the case of the video going and beating the bad guy up only leaves them free to take that anger out on the victim.  I know, I was the victim.  Anyway I am upset and tired and going to bed.  Please watch the video.  Be safe, be happy, and hugs

July 29, 2019

Gateway is abuse

Filed under: Children, Dealing With Abuse, Harm, Health, Reason, Sad — Scottie @ 06:40

July 27, 2019

Child Abuse!! Call it what it is, child abuse


July 26, 2019

Ghosts we need to hear

Filed under: Bigotry, Dealing With Abuse, Education, Harm, History, News, Political, Questions, Race, Reason, Sad — Scottie @ 06:53


A white man and an elderly Native man became pretty good friends, so the white guy decided to ask him: “What do you think about Indian mascots?

The Native elder responded: “Here’s what you’ve got to understand.

“When you look at black people, you see ghosts of all the slavery and the rapes and the hangings and the chains. When you look at Jews, you see ghosts of all those bodies piled up in death camps. And those ghosts keep you trying to do the right thing.

“But when you look at us you don’t see the ghosts of the little babies with their heads smashed in by rifle butts at the Big Hole, or the old folks dying by the side of the trail on the way to Oklahoma while their families cried and tried to make them comfortable, or the dead mothers at Wounded Knee or the little kids at Sand Creek who were shot for target practice. You don’t see any ghosts at all. Instead you see casinos and drunks and junk cars and shacks.

“Well, we see those ghosts. And they make our hearts sad and they hurt our little children. And when we try to say something, you tell us, ‘Get over it. This is America. Look at the American dream.’ But as long as you’re calling us Redskins and doing tomahawk chops, we can’t look at the American dream, because those things remind us that we are not real human beings to you.

“And when people aren’t humans, you can turn them into slaves or kill six million of them or shoot them down with Hotchkiss guns and throw them into mass graves at Wounded Knee.

“No, we’re not looking at the American dream. And why should we? We still haven’t woken up from the American nightmare”

~ Source Unknown
(I found this on fb and sharing here)


The American shame.

July 25, 2019

A Border Patrol Agent Reveals What It’s Really Like to Guard Migrant Children


July 11, 2019

Pat Benatar – Hell Is for Children – Live 2001

Filed under: Children, Criminal, Dealing With Abuse, Family, Harm, Sad, Song, Songs and Music — Scottie @ 06:16

July 2, 2019

Very troubling







June 28, 2019

This needs to be more widely known.



Holy, repeat “holy”, crap

Did Trump, because he must brag about himself, just admit to being a pedophile?

If he admits he said it.

Guess who hired 20 year old Jeffrey Epstein, already a two-time college drop-out, to teach at NYC private school Dalton?

Answer: AG William Barr’s father, Donald Barr.

No coincidence Epstein gets lenient sentence with friends like William Barr and Alex Acosta.

Epstein was charged with recruiting dozens of girls, some as young as 13, for massages and sex at his mansion in Palm Beach, Fla. Under a plea deal reached in 2007 with then-U.S. Attorney Alex Acosta, Epstein was given immunity from federal prosecution and pleaded guilty to lesser state charges. The financier served just 13 months in county jail and was granted work release, allowing him to spend his days at his Palm Beach office. Acosta now serves as President Trump’s Labor secretary.

The Republican Swamp is massive.

June 15, 2019

Well think about it

June 14, 2019

Just take it and be grateful? No way!

Filed under: Asshole / Jerk, Criminal, Dealing With Abuse, Fascism, Harm, News, Questions, Religion — Scottie @ 09:13
Article: “If a pastor MOLESTS you, take it for the Team” – Nigerian Man advices
Apparently “god” is fragile and everyone should throw themselves under the bus in defence of the weak-ass, impotent Xtian god.


Article: “If a pastor MOLESTS you, take it for the Team” – Nigerian Man advices

Apparently “god” is fragile and everyone should throw themselves under the bus in defence of the weak-ass, impotent Xtian god



June 6, 2019

What happened to never again? A concentration camp

“Basically they’ve been forced to live in a Concentration Camp.


Basically they’ve been forced to live in a Concentration Camp.

(Source: anarchist-art, via russalex)

May 16, 2019

Religious doesn’t mean good, Christian doesn’t mean moral

Pastor Who Raped Adopted 14-y.o. Daughter Gets Lenient Sentence Due to His Faith

Pastor Who Raped Adopted 14-y.o. Daughter Gets Lenient Sentence Due to His Faith

Here’s all you need to know about Pastor David Richards: He repeatedly raped his adopted daughter, starting when she was just 14 years old.

She finally told authorities when she was 16. He denied doing anything wrong, though his semen was found on her bed frame. A jury found him guilty on nine felony counts (including rape, incest, and sexual battery) earlier this year.

Richards faced the possibility of 72 years in prison.

You already know where this story is going, don’t you…?


Ultimately, the judge backed away from the 72 year maximum sentence he could’ve given… and settled on a mere 12.


It’s just another example of Christianity literally being treated as a Get Out of Jail Free card even though we’re talking about a convicted child rapist. An atheist who raped his daughter would go to jail for life, I guess, but a Christian man who sexually abuses his daughter over and over deserves some leniency because he’s really a good guy.

Amber Richards is the daughter in question, and she said in her impact statement that “Not a day goes by that I don’t, in some way, think of what he did to me. I firmly believe if given the opportunity, he would victimize another young girl.”

The judge heard that and ignored it. Then he gave David Richards the opportunity to traumatize more children in the future in part because of his dedication to Jesus.

Not Me!

Filed under: Children, Dealing With Abuse, Fascism, Harm, Health, News, Political, Questions, Religion — Scottie @ 06:21

May 8, 2019

Let’s talk about the next 11-year-old girl….

Filed under: Children, Dealing With Abuse, Gender, Harm, News, Political, Questions, Reason, Religion — Scottie @ 14:07

This is CC.

May 7, 2019

Gaza Crisis UPDATE

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