Ron had gone to the bedroom for a nap. I was up reading the story in the Atlantic that I posted. I got so discouraged, I went to bed my self. Ron said I was not in the bed 30 seconds when I let out a loud “Oh”. He said then I started kicking and thrashing in the bed, something I have not done in a long time. I use to do it reliving my abuse. I still dream of my abusers almost nightly, but don’t react or live out the abuse in my dreams after all these years. Ron hates that they haunt me, and as he believes in magic / the supernatural use to do cleaning spells to keep them away. Wish in one hand and … He said when it started he realized what was happening and tired to talk to me. When I was not responding he got out of bed, the best thing he could do unless I started to yell or scream. This whole tRump / election thing is getting to me. tRump thugs remind me of the people who abused me, his thugs are so like them. Nothing matters to them except their own pleasure, their own wants. They have no care for others, no decency or fair play, for them it is their own gratification that matters above all else. My abusers would be huge tRump supporters. When I got up Ron tried to get me to eat, but I have no hunger at all. Hey I will be OK, I have my kittens here with me, Milo on the desk, and Odie on the hot tub. I have a wonderful office with lots of windows. I have a great computer / TV / game system setup. I have a great and wonderful husband who loves me. What more could a person want. This too shall pass. 😢😨 Hugs
The last few days have been busy for me. On Monday I tried to make fluffy dinner rolls and they came out chalky, but I did make a great pizza, Ron helped. I think I over mixed the dough with the hook. The instructions said kneed it for 4 minutes, but the dough came together and looked good in one minute. But I kept going. I will trust my self more next time.
Here is the pizza we made for lunch.
I browned ground beef, garlic, peppers, onions in one pan, then in the other pan I did the same with ground sausage and drained both. Then I rolled out and baked the crust for about 8 minutes. Then Ron and I added items such as sauce, the beef, sausage, cheese, then mushrooms, and last the pepperoni. I like the pepperoni last because I don’t care for it and it is easy to pick off that way. I give them to Ron, he loves them. I was wiped out for the rest of the day.
Tuesday I got up about 3:40 AM. Why do that I hear you ask. Well I have my alarm set for 4 AM. I used to not be able to sleep through the night but with my pain medications increased I can now sleep longer. However I do prefer to get up and start my cartoon blogging and start any computer work around 4 AM. I have two alarms, the one on my phone set for 4 AM which always goes off at 4 AM. The other one is mobile, orange, furry, has four legs, a fluffy tail, and a wonderful cute face. He also has a rather sharp get up now yowl. He is not so careful with time as my phone. Any time between 3:30 and 4 AM he will start to trying to get me up. He sleeps on my pillow, so when he is ready to get me up he will walk down the length of me. I push him off and try to ignore him. He then sits on my bedside table and softly meows in my face. If that doesn’t work he goes for the big guns. He gets down on the floor and ramps up the volume and sharpness of the now demands to get up. So to keep him quiet I get up.
So that morning Ron was home and he was sort of fussing, so I made breakfast. I fried up some potatoes mixed with shredded potato we bought, I baked some bacon in the oven, took some eggs and mixed them up with a dash of water and whipped them and made scrambled eggs, and finished with home made toast with whipped butter. I don’t have pictures of that.
Ron was struggling with filing for Medicare which he has to do now that he is about to turn 65. I have helped him with a lot of it, so I decided to make a tomato spaghetti sauce and some thin spaghetti. I used the left over meat I browned for the pizza, that was the plan. I added some more minced garlic ( I love garlic ) peppers, onions, celery, oregano, basil, celery salt, regular salt, black pepper, and a couple dashes of crushed red peppers. After it is well hot and simmering I added two bottles of small whole “button” mushrooms. Some times I take some small meat balls, bake them 3/4 of the way cooked and then add them to the cooking sauce as this flavors them well. But I was just too tired and worn out yesterday.
For supper that night Ron took over and made chicken supreme. It is his mothers recipe and I love it. Take a baking pan, line the bottom with dried beef, add the chicken breasts and as we tend to love the dish Ron cuts and packs in any extra chicken breasts he has left over. Then in a large bowl mix a couple cans of cream of chicken soup, Ron prefers to work with Campbell’s brand, different cheeses, sour cream and pour the entire thing over the chicken. Bake at 325 uncovered for 2 hours. Ron cooked up elbow macaroni to go with it. The gravy is wonderful over everything. He also made broccoli and again the gravy is great on that also.
This morning, Wednesday for those keeping track, I was awakened by Milo at 3:50 with him softly meowing into my face. I decided to get up before he woke Ron. I am in a lot of pain and struggling to walk. So no cooking or other chores for me. Besides we have a bunch of left overs. Ron has gone for a nap and will need my help doing more of his filing for Social Security retirement. But for me it will be a news day and hopefully a small record. I was listening to Tucker Carlson complain about how the left is bullying the conservatives / country and wont let the right use their voices and taking away all their rights by claiming unfairly that there is racism in the US. He attacked Sesame Street for corrupting our children by telling them that the people were protesting how some people were treated unfairly do to their skin color. Wow what an alternate reality he lives in. Hugs
Hello all you grand wonderful people. Ron has been home for a longer period than normal, he has been off work about two weeks. If you noticed I have not been posting as much since I got over the bug I had it is because while it took me 6 days to get over, some of them rather miserable, the rest I just couldn’t stay awake, I slept and slept and slept. Ron caught what I had and had one night of chills and a couple days of being really tired and wanting to sleep. He told his bosses at work, he works in the ICU’s of a large hospital here. They sidelined him for 10 days and he had to take a CV19 test. The test came back negative but as the tests have such a high error rate they still had him stay away from work.
Ron and I have a wonderful relationship and one of the reasons why is we do not feel the need to hang on each other, allowing each other to do our own thing. Ron and I do not share the same TV, YouTube, Netflix, or any other media source interests. Ron created a whole office space for me so I could just do my own thing without bothering anyone especially him. I am into news, electronics, my blog, others blogs, and humor as you know from what I post. Ron loves wood working ( he has a really nice collections of tools I add to now and then, and that he suddenly seems to need for every home project no matter well how the other tools worked for the same job just days before ) he loves home project channels, tool channels, new car test channels, and anime, and all these Oriental movies and shows that need subtitles to watch. Those drive me nuts.
One of the things we have a joint interest in is cooking, and cooking stuff. We both have different things we like to cook or specialize in. That is why we started the kitchen remodeling and tore the entire old kitchen / dining room area of our house out ( finding massive wall damage that needed repairing and are rebuilding a kitchen that two people can cook and create in together without cursing each other out ) We are refining the kitchen plans as we work together. Like we found out a microwave over the stove is not really a good idea despite what the appliance store people say.
So as I said we both enjoy cooking and we have different interests. That is true of cooking, we each have things we like to cook, that we are good at cooking, and we trade off according the meal as to who cooks and what. Surprisingly what is hardest for me is being without my media, so for those who do not know I need a constant inflow of information to keep my mind focused. If you want more on that then ask and I will explain. But I have my Iphone, my earbuds, and the new super TV we bought last year for my office has Bluetooth which means I can get my stuff in the kitchen while Ron watches his stuff in the open concept living room kitchen we have and he is building.
We both love home cooked bread and now I have given up using a bread making machine, and instead use our kitchen tools and do it from scratch. I like it better doing it that way. However I have never made pies, cookies, or other desserts. Ron use to make them but has lost desire or interest over the years. So we have been working together to make different things, showing each other what we know and tips to make things better. For example I understand dough and can tell when it is done or needs to either have something added or needs more kneading. So lets start a week or more ago and here I will insert pictures.
So I am experimenting with Different types of bread recipes, this one makes two loafs so I decided to make one a cinnamon loaf.
As you can see on the cinnamon one I did not roll it thin enough and used too little of the cinnamon sugar. But not bad for a first try. Nan says I buy Ron all these kitchen toys is so I can use them.
So next it was on to the next try. An apple pie.
It tastes great and I just finished the last piece for lunch. However both Ron and I both were frustrated over the store bought crust and as we had far more apples than could be forced into one pie despite Ron trying had to do so. So we put the leftover apples into the fridge to make a second pie the next time with homemade crust.
But first there was a second try at the cinnamon bread yesterday. I used a different recipe. It came out much better and with a lot less fussing. It was so much better and softer. I think I found the recipe I like for bread.
Sunday after the Sunday news shows I made Ron a bunch of pancakes for lunch.
Then today. We did not like the way the store bought crust worked so Ron told me he had a recipe for pie crust made from scratch. Oh man did that turn out to be a morning ordeal. There are no pictures of this. Ron had a recipe from his grand mother he wanted us to try. However he forgot how to do it. So for a couple hours this morning we fought and cursed the crust. Then after we got the pie ready to cook, Ron remembered all the steps he forgot that would have made it workable.
But here is today’s pie with less apples and home made crust.
What new cooking experiences will be tomorrow? Here I must add that in the US I am lucky. Ron and I are not among the many that are food insecure. That is not bragging, I wish no one was. We are barely in to the lower ranking of middle class. We are not wealthy and we are definitely working poor, but Ron has a job that pays him less than it should but enough to live on and we combine that with my disability from years of working until my body just gave out. As hard as it is for us trying to fix our home and keep things going we realize it is a lot harder for others. In our park we often made a point to invite those we knew were cash strapped to meals or events, our treat, doing so in ways that did not make anyone feel uncomfortable or that they were less than. I still fix anyone’s computer or help them out with no charge, because if they can not call on me, they have no ability to get any help. Our country has a huge gap in living conditions and we are all so close to being with out, being the ones living on the streets. The thing is it doesn’t have to be this way. There are alternatives, 33 other countries in the world we claim to be more wealthy than, do those alternatives. Hugs
Hello all you wonderful grand viewers. My apologizes for not posting and not answering / monitoring comments. For those who don’t know I have not been feeling well. Thought I was better yesterday but then this happened.
Ron had made a wonderful dinner of coated pork roast, thin sliced coated baked potatoes, pork gravy, green beans. We started to eat at around 4 PM. Around 4:30 PM I woke up realizing I had been sleeping at my desk with only part of my dinner eaten. So wonderful Ron sent me off to bed and he picked everything up and took care of the house.
I went to bed at 4:45 PM, I went right to sleep. I never heard Ron come to bed, never heard him get up, I woke up at 5 AM. Yes I slept for 12 hours. I really did not want to get out of bed but Milo wanted me up and was working hard to make it happened. I have no energy. Ron seen I was up and made the morning coffee. It is nearly an hour later and I am just getting around to stuff. My head feels like it is all fuzzy and filled with cotton candy. My nose is running. No fever that we can tell. Very tired. It could be allergies because I am only getting my shots once a month and it is not enough. When I am not taking my shots it is like having a cold. Ron thinks my bloods sugar could be playing a part and as soon as I ate it made me really tired, which could account for some other symptoms. But this struck a couple weeks ago, went away, and now is back again.
So I missed the cartoon / meme roundup yesterday. I am going to try to do one today. It will be long so I will try to separate it into two posts. Then I will spend as much time as I can getting to the comments starting from the oldest to the newest. Then I am going to turn on the email machines. Hugs
Ron got done a 3 day 12 hour work week on Thursday morning. That is normal. However with the things going on, with him trying to honor the stay at home idea, he decided to not go to the hardware stores, Lowes, Home Depot. Instead he decided to do stuff at home.
What I also misunderstood was his stay at home projects for himself also somehow included me. And my computers.
Friday Ron decided it was joint baking / cooking day. No not just him, we would cook together. Uhm, can I just do my posts and you cook to your heart’s content. Nope, we need to do this together. Oh hell OK, in between bread rising times, and cooking times I ran to my computers. Then there was the what shall we cook for supper. Oh but it got worse the next day.
I got up and did some stuff and then got Ron up. That was my first mistake of the day. As I am getting ready to go do my shower Ron announced he is going to clean the inside of my XPS computer, would I shut it down. ??? Seemed the heat sensors I installed alarmed him with the heat inside the computer. I knew I needed to do it soon, but as I wanted to take the time to research and add new parts to the XPS I was not ready to do it yet. I was wrong. While I was in the shower Ron unhooked my XPS, put it on the hot tub and went to town cleaning it. I have to admit it was a great job he did and he was so proud of it that as I was starting to blog he wanted the other computer also. I lost five hours or more online time. I do have spanky clean computers. The rest of the day went the same way.
I figured he would find to do on his own yesterday and I could have all day to my own tasks of blogging and commenting, reading and watching news. However my wonderful husband remembered I have been asking for months for the living room furniture to be moved around so I have easier access to the windows. I have only been asking since last fall. He decided yesterday was the day to indulge me. Oh lucky me. I was happy he was going to do it, less happy to be informed my presence was required for the entire event.
Just as we were getting done and it was near my bed time we had a discussion as to supper. Ron was all for ordering out for delivery. Not take out as he did not feel like going out to pick it up. I decided to make a quickly meal for us and go to bed.
These are only some of the together tasks Ron has decided we should do. Normally the laundry is my area as he has set everything up to be easier for me. Not this weekend, it was “I will help day”. That sounds good until you figure he doesn’t do the laundry and so had his ideas far different from my normal routine. Then we organized the cupboards together. Several other things.
It is only last night I realized what this really was about. Ron is seeing patients die of this virus almost every night at work. More than his normal death rate from working in an ICU. The way this virus kills is the respiratory system. It makes it so you can not breathe. Ron has already taken it on him self to do any shopping, gassing the cars, anything involving being out in the public on himself. He has given me masks, gloves, wipes for anytime I need to deal with people. Yesterday a woman wanted to bring over a computer for me to wipe the hard drive, Ron told her to leave it out side , then he went out and sprayed it and wiped it down. That is when I figured it out. He knows my breathing is very shallow. My last operation they had trouble bring me back out of anesthesia. I get short of breath easily , even just rapidly talking when excited.
We have been together 30 years, good times, bad times, but always together. I think he is afraid I will get this and he will lose me. I wonder about the many healthcare workers and their families going through this? And I understand Ron’s anger at churches having large gatherings, at the protests to open up from people who have not experienced the loss and the many deaths this virus causes.
Ron is now in bed trying to sleep for the start of 4 days of 12 hour shifts. I told him I would make some of my home made tomato sauce for pasta he likes, he asked for rigatoni pasta tonight. I will gladly do it, and tomorrow I will gladly make fresh bread and anything he wants. For a few hours I will try to alternate between blogging and reading others blogs, but I wanted to share this revelation with everyone. Stay safe. Hugs
Hello everyone, you happy and wonderful grand people. I am home from my eye checkup, with eyes still dilated and seeing sort of blurry. So I have good news and some not so good news.
My doctor has a great deal. If you get an eye exam and buy your new glasses from him you do not pay for the exam, and you also get to choose two frames. They charge you for the most expensive pair and the other is free. You select the options you want for your primary lenses. Such as progressive no lines, tints or transitions, the type of lenses such as Crizal or lens coatings. The secondary pair gets regular lenses with your prescription. So you get two glasses with your prescription, a primary pair with all the bells and whistles, and a secondary backup pair if your primary pair breaks. I have had that happen as have others I have known. Ron and I keep the second pair in the car. If we are out and our glasses break we can still have a pair to use to drive home with.
I got new glasses last year. Then the doctor was able to correct my vision to 20-40. I got the deal I mentioned above. I really like the primary I picked out which was a much larger lens than my old ones. I also liked but never wore my secondary frames which had a slightly smaller lens size and different lens shape. My plan was if my prescription had not changed I would get new lenses for my secondary pair so I would have two glasses with all the good stuff on them to use interchangeably.
Ah the best laid plans of mice and men.
However my sight had changed a lot. I did not notice it because last year when I went for my check I had been putting it off due to price for several years. My vision had gotten really bad, turned out I needed a prism. So this time I did not see the change because the prism need had not changed. Last year he could only get my vision to 20-40. This year he got my vision with correction to 20-20. Other good news is I have no signs of diabetic retinopathy. Other good news is my cataract in the right eye has not gotten larger. The bad news is the cataract in the left eye is growing but still out to the side of my vision.
So I went back and forth with getting new frames or keeping the frames I have. It would have saved us $100 but I wouldn’t have a second pair with my prescription should I need them. Ron decided that I needed the availability of the second pair and if I wanted to go back to my current frames next year I could. So the next thing was to pick out a couple new frames. I found a really large lenses gold frame I liked. Both Ron and the woman fitting them, Erica, felt they were so large they overwhelmed my face. I thought they looked great. Ron found a silver gun metal pair with lenses just slightly larger than the pair I love to wear now. I fretted that they were not gold. I have worn glasses since I was 17 years old, and I always had gold frames. As Ron explained to Erica my hair then had been a nice auburn darker red. Now as Ron pointed out to me my hair has gone a more grey and lost the redness. They both liked the silver on me. I asked if they had the same frame in gold, and Erica said no. Then she left me and Ron to lash it out. When she got back she told me that she had ordered the gold last week from the sales person when they had come through last week. So I only needed to pick which one I wanted as my primary and which as my secondary pair and which as my secondary pair. I decided to get my primary the silver gun metal pair, and the other as my secondary pair. If I want I can get the lenses put in the other pair later. Hugs
Time has moved on this morning since I finished the above. Just as I finished it about noon, Ron had finished making our lunch. He had gotten a london broil the other day when out. I suggest he slice it on an angle which is how it is tendeerest, then cut the pieces short. Then cook them in the Instant Pot I got him for christmas with peppers, celery, mushrooms, beef broth and all the seasonings for fajitas. Once they were cooked really tender he took them out, spread them on a large tray, seasoned them well again with more fajita seasonings and fried them for a few minutes. Oh great cat ruling the universe they were good. Then we both needed a nap. So now at 3:45 PM in the afternoon I am up and ready to try to get to the comments I have missed all day. I think when I get the new glasses I will be faster on the computer as reading will be even easier for me than they are now. Hugs
My Husband is a ICU healthcare provider. He is a CNAA. The demand is real. The number of PTs are growing exponentially. The supply shortage is damningly drastically critical. These workers are putting themselves and their families on the line to take care of people who are dying from this very real virus. The stimulus bill gave 500 billion leveraged times 10 which is in the trillions, yet for hospitals less than 1.5 billion from reporting I have read. The government cares more for the feelings of wall street wealthy than the life of workers and the poor in hospitals who are sick and dying.
The states are bidding against each other to get whatever supplies they can. This is jacking up the prices massively. The manufactures are loving this. The sudden increase in profits on top of the already huge profit margins of these products are mind boggling. The solution is simple but our government won’t do it because businesses making huge profits off the lower incomes is their dream come true. The federal government needs to take the needs of all the states, go to the manufactures as one bidder, order the supplies, and give them out to the states fairly without politics of the dear leader in the way. Thank you for contacting your elected officials and leaning on them as much as you can.
Personally I fear every time my husband leaves for work. He puts on a brave face, but I know he is worried. We have taken steps to deal with his uniforms / clothing worn at work to keep them from spreading any hazards to the rest of the house and family. When he arrives home I open the doors where needed. He doesn’t touch things or us at all until he showers and sprays disinfections where needed. This is some of what we are dealing with each night he works. Think of the anxiety many people have going shopping for essentials right now, multiply that many more times because he is dealing with known PTs that do have this virus. Add to this is the fact that both Ron and myself are considered high risk. With our medical conditions if we get this we are most likely to die instead of recovering. Hugs
I slept through most of Christmas day. I have not been able to get much sleep / rest for months. I go to bed so tired I can not function and in less than four hours of fitful sleep I am up again. Some nights I wake up in pain or in spasms with in a hour of going to bed. There is not more they can do for it, but give me more spine shots. So Christmas eve I went to bed at 6 right after Ron left for work. For some reason Ron texted me repeatedly over the next hour waking me a few times. Then when I explained to him to please let me sleep, some asshole with a blaring car stereo drove up and down the streets, stopping occasionally and then starting up again. Just as I was about to call management and complain they left. Yea. I tried to drift off again. Then joy of joys, drunken people on golf carts wailing something vaguely resembling a Christmas song and ringing bells decided to parade up and down the street. I though seriously of asking Satan to deliver drone strikes but felt the now started local fireworks would drown them out well enough. So I lay there listening to the pop pop of people in the park thinking they were showing Christmas spirit by setting off rows of fire crackers and occasional larger fire works. Pop, pop, phff, boom. Repeat. But the real noise makers were the local government fire works of the cites around us, who competed until midnight to see who could make the loudest booms. At midnight peace reigned on earth, or at least in my park and I hope I could get a few hours of sleep. It was not to be because my laying in bed had upset my spine and the spasms in my legs and feet started. After a half hour of fighting them I got up, started the coffee and went online grumpy, tired, and with about 2 and a half hours of broken sleep dished out in about 20 minute segments. I sent Ron a merry Christmas wish at work. Yea! Ron got home at 8, took a nap, and got up at noon to start the turkey and stuff. I struggled to stay up but I couldn’t and went to bed about 2 PM. Ron woke me around 4, I stayed up long enough to eat a little of the food he worked so hard to cook, with all the trimmings. I did not even make it to the pies. I went back to bed. I slept until 8 PM, woke up, realized Ron had come to bed and I had not woken up, something really rare that I do not notice when he or even the cats enter the bedroom. I then fell back to sleep. Glory of glories. Woke at midnight, took some pain and muscle medications and fell asleep again. Maybe there is a god? I woke up at 2:30 AM with muscle spasms so I got up. But I feel great, better than I have in a long time. I can not remember when I got that much sleep. I feel bad that Ron cooked all that food and I barely tasted it. But the left over will be grand. So that was my Christmas. I hope everyone else had a great day also. Hugs
Hello Everyone. I needed to get a new monitor for my video computer. I had a flat screen 24 inch on it. Ron is getting a computer and he needs a monitor so I will give him that one. I wanted something bigger for watching the news videos, YouTube stuff, HBO, Netflix, and movies from Amazon. As the movies Ron and I buy are 4K and even some YouTube channels I follow are 4K I figured it would be better to get a monitor that handles that. However I was a bit surprised at the prices of new 4K monitors of that size. So I looked into the refurbished program Amazon has. It seemed really decent. So I found a refurbished 32 inch 4K monitor with all the features and a stand that was height adjustable, tilt adjustable and even landscape / portrait mode adjustable. Plus I really like the hookup being straight on acceptable rather than built under an opening. I hate having to bend over with a flashlight to hook and unhook the cables. The price was quite reduced at $329.99.
LG 32in UHD 4K Dual HDMI DisplayPort 3840×2160 LED LCD Monitor – 32UD59-B (Renewed)
I was worried about the refurbished issue so when it arrived I took pictures of every step of unpacking it and setting it up. I need not have worried. There was not a mark on it, I would have thought it was brand new never out of the original box if it did not have a small sticker on the back saying refurbished.
So am I happy? How does it work? I am thrilled. It is so clear, so much brighter and clearer than the old monitor. I love the larger size. The only draw back is I am running out of space on my desk and the cats do not like having one of the places they sprawl out on the desk reduced. Ron said he is going to build little side wings for the desk. I Jokingly told Ron I liked it so much I thought I should get one like it for my main blogging computer. He about popped a cork. I have a 27 inch monitor that is only three or four years old. He was not in favor of the idea at all. Seemed to think I was rather “pushing my luck” to suggest another new monitor. 😀😃😄😎😎
Here are the pictures I took while unpacking and setting up the monitor. Notice Milo found the box as soon as I set it down. Hugs