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May 13, 2018

The Theist Experience #3: Gay Conversion Therapy (satire)

Filed under: Atheism, Funny Stuff, Homosexual, Questions, Reason, Religion, Sex — Scottie @ 16:45

April 13, 2018

So much for christian morals

Filed under: News, Political, Questions, Religion, Sex — Tags: , , , , , — Scottie @ 14:23

Evangelical Support for Trump Has Gone Up (!) Since Stormy Daniels Scandal Began.

http://www.patheos.com/blogs/friendlyatheist/2018/04/12/evangelical-support-for-trump-has-gone-up-since-stormy-daniels-scandal-began/

That’s the party of “family values” for you. They are, and always have been, hypocrites. “Values” only matter when it’s the other party guilty of violating them. When it’s their own people, they look the other way.

How ingrained is that myth in the Christian mindset?

Get this: Since the Stormy Daniels scandal began, Trump’s support among evangelicals has gone up.

The most recent Pew polls suggest that President Donald Trump hasn’t just held his support amongst white evangelicals but actually has grown his support since the Stormy Daniels story took hold.

With his white evangelical support having dropped to 61 percent in December, Trump now enjoys 78 percent support, just a shade beneath the support he won from white evangelicals on Election Day

 

March 20, 2018

The Loophole by Garfunkel and Oates

Filed under: Family, Funny Stuff, Funny videos, Ideas, Music Video, Religion, Sex, Song, You Tube — Scottie @ 14:51

A song about Christian girls who stay virgins until they’re married but have anal sex instead.

September 25, 2017

Conservative Christian Men’s Weird Sexual Addiction

Filed under: Greed, Reason, Religion, Sex — Scottie @ 15:54

I was having a conversation with a theist named Mel on his blog here https://melwild.wordpress.com/2017/08/18/atheist-puts-the-smackdown-on-richard-carrier/ and sort of out of the blue Mel dismissed a well known atheist speaker because of the persons legal consensual sexual activities.    The fact that the person is not following the sexual morals lauded by Mel seemed to negate the persons arguments and his worth to Mel.   That angered me.  I responded and then asked some friends what their opinion was.   Victoria sent me a link to this grand post.  Thank you Victoria.  Hugs

There are three words guaranteed to strike fear in the hearts of most Conservative Christians—especially the men: Sex, Sexuality, Gender. Any one of these subjects, whether spoken of explicitly or peripherally, is sure to induce panic attacks and leave Bible Belt Jesus dudes breaking out in a cold sweat, turning fifty shades of red, and sprinting for the nearest… Continue Reading Conservative Christian Men’s Weird Sexual Addiction

Source: Conservative Christian Men’s Weird Sexual Addiction

March 2, 2017

I recognize that furious, screaming child that lives inside Milo Yiannopoulos – The Globe and Mail

Filed under: Dealing With Abuse, Harm, History, My Life and Rants, Sex — Tags: , , — Scottie @ 12:38

***This post is about sexual abuse, sexual situations, and a bit about how sexual abuse messed up my own understanding of sex.  If those topics bother you please stop reading now and go to a blog more pleasing to you with my thanks for stopping by.  Oh it also got very long.  Hugs ***

I was going to write this post yesterday but I kept putting it off because I guess I just did not want to deal with it, with my own feelings.  I have been on edge lately caught between needing to voice some of the things from my past, and feeling a huge need to just hide that it happened, that it happened to me.   A grand lady sent me a link to a great video.  I loved the video.  But because I am raw right now on this subject what I normally hide burst out of me.   I sent her an email where I basically divulged some things I had not voice before.   At least not sober.   🙂  She being a grand lady and a great friend wrote me back saying we should talk.  I panicked.  I wrote her I could barely write about it and no way I could verbally talk about it, I begged her to let it drop.  I hid again.  She understood but I knew she felt if I did not address it I would blow a gasket.  I agree with that, I need a safety valve to slowly release the parts I can.   Here is some thoughts I have, my letting it out safely if such a thing is possible.  

The article below talks about things I know because I have experienced it.     I do not in anyway give Milo a pass, I do not agree with the direction he went, I oppose his hateful nasty ways of trying to find worth and fame.  However I did go through the stages the author mentioned.   Let me start again as my mind went off to protect itself and I had to wrestle it back here.  

I was sexually abused.   I had a working knowledge of sex, the ways of it and the male body.   I did not have any clue about the emotional aspect of sex.  What emotions I associated with it were all wrong.  When kids in school talked in hushed tones about getting a blow job, laughed at dick jokes, and talked about boning a girl, I was confused and felt left out.  It was not because I was gay, that had its own problems.  See I knew about penises, I knew what sucking a cock was because I was doing it, I was the girl getting the cock and trust me it was not like the boys talked.   I was not able to join in on these boyhood dreams and fantasies.   I was mentally not able to process the disconnect between their words and my reality.  Sex for me was not pleasant and dream like, it was not something that made one happy and fulfilled.   It was power, authority, it was control over another, over me.  As I got older my body responded and in truth I felt this was normal sex.  I grew older and angry.  In my teens I desperately wanted what everyone around me talked about, what movies and books hinted at, but I was clueless and did not believe it existed.  

I remember being about 14 or 15 and wanting sex with my history teacher so bad.  I knew what guys wanted from me, to show they owned me, they could do what they wanted to me, that they could satisfy themselves and throw me away.  But remember I had no warm human contact.  I craved it, attention from a man who seemed so kind to me.  Surely if I came to him willingly he wouldn’t hurt me much right?  So I put myself out there for him.  I don’t know what he thought of the things I hinted.  I won’t describe the things I did , they are bad enough to remember and worse to share.  After a couple weeks he asked me to stay after school.   He would take me home.  I thought this was it, I was going feel what the boys all talked about.   But the teacher was a grand man, an honest man.  He figured out I was abused ( I think many knew ) and wanted to help me.  He tried to talk to me in the classroom but I couldn’t understand what he wanted, why was he not ordering me to pull my pants down, why was he not saying the angry words I normally heard if I was talked to at all during it.   He then figured I would talk if he took me home in his car.   In the car I waited for the order to “make him happy” but he did only talked and talked and talk.  My mind drifted off.  Soon we were at my home.  The only thing I learned was it was true that no one wanted me, I was not worth anything, I was below humans and not even a teacher had a use for me.  

Fast forward to me in the Navy stationed in San Diego.  I was 18.   I was fit and trim, I was cute even though I did not know it.  I did not make friends, I stayed to myself, I couldn’t connect to others.  The ways they acted and the things they wanted I could not understand.  Understand I was so very horny, I carved sex.  I wanted so much to have something, I just did not know what it was or how to get it.   I hated the sex I knew , but my body wanted the feeling of sex, to mate, so badly it was driving me mad.   So I explored the city, something I had never seen having grown up in a town with more cattle than people.  I had no fear, I was clueless.   I ran and jogged and looked at it all.   One early evening I had just ran the length of Broadway because running felt good to me, and was at a bench outside a bank stretching when a young guy came up to me.  He had been watching me but I did not know that then.  To me he was an adult and so I responded to him as an authority.  He really was just barely 25 and unsure, but I was trained by both my childhood and the military to submit to those older than me.  What was about to happen was my first consensual adult sexual experience and it will show how screwed up I was.   He asked me to his apartment.  I followed him.  I still had no clue what he was really doing.  He was a young cute gay guy with a new job as an architect.   He thought I was a coy young gay kid who knew what I was doing and what was happening.  In truth I was clueless.  He had asked me to go with him and I was.   When we got to his place he started to do all the things people trying to hook up do.  It went over my head.  When he kissed me I froze.  When he touched me I understood what I was to do.  I peeled out of my clothes and my body went to auto pilot and my mind took a vacation.  The guy must have thought he went to gay heaven.   He had found a young cute compliant guy to do what he wanted without asking for anything.  After a couple weeks we had a pattern.  I would come over , get naked, he would have sex with me, I would perform for him as he wished.  He would then shower, go out to the clubs and party, come back to his apartment and have me.  He told me after we broke up he couldn’t believe how lucky he was, I never complained, I just waited for him.  He could do as he wished.  He thought he had it all.  I thought I loved him.  He was basically my first.  When he touched me it was not to hurt, he never hit me, he never was angry , he never yelled at me.  He was kind, gentle, he made sure it did not hurt, but felt good.  There was only one thing he wanted and I couldn’t give it because I did not understand.  He wanted to reciprocate for me what I did for him.  When he would try I would draw away.  I was not trained for that.  I had been taught this was for something I did for others.  I was not to have the pleasure they did.  It had been beaten in me so I resisted him on that.  After about a month of this, one weekend at his place he had enough and confronted me about it.  I had no way to answer.  He tried to make it happen and when I pulled away and tried to roll over he pushed me down and did what I thought I was to do to him.  Sorry trying to not be graphic.  It did not go the way he thought it would.  I simply had never had those things done to me, I had no idea what to do or how to react.  I was scared, had flash backs because he had used force for the first time, I expected pain next and so did not respond the way he wanted or thought I should.   He had only wanted to give me pleasure and instead he realized it went badly wrong, but he did not know why.  Instead of the happy willing kid I had been I turned into a silent zombi who did not move or respond.  He finished the act and for the first time there was no joy in it for either of us.  My fear caused us to break up.  He had seemed so great in my mind, I was desperate for him, but now my body was scared.  If he had know, if he had taken more time.  He was young, it was not his fault.  

I left the Navy and entered the Army.  I watched others have the relationships and joy I wanted, some of them good and some of them bad as life normally is.  I became the boyfriend of my sargent, again willing to please and he was willing to take.  He was the boss, was subservient.  In the military it was not strange because of the rank difference between us.  I won’t go into details of those years. I came home with no more understanding of love and relationships than I had before.  

I became a civilian, and I got a good boring job.  I bought a home, and a new truck.  I stayed alone.  I never went out.  I was angry , oh so angry.  It was not worth living.  I was in dark places in my mind.  The only company I had was the memories I hated so.  The only people I talked to not at work were the 70 year old lady across the street I took for groceries and the people who had homes around mine.  I greeted them in passing.  A family moved in next door and they tried hard to start a friendly relationship with me.  I had stopped caring about myself, my needs.  I came home from work, drank until I passed out, storming to myself all the time,  trying to sleep without the nightmares, and going back to work.   In truth I was starting to think it was not worth living, life was just pain.  

Then before I could work out how to die, my neighbors decided I was going out to a gay club that had opened in the last year or so.  I had worked a shut down, so I was flush with money and vacation time.  My work forced me to take a month vacation as I had so much built up.   I went out just to shut up the neighbors.  I figured I would go out, sneak back in an hour or so and it would be over.   I went to the gay bar.  An old gay guy hit on me, I said no.  A sleazy man who seemed like a used car salesman tried to hit on me, I got up and went down stairs of the bar.  That was more a sitting area with big arm chairs, a couple pool tables, and a u shaped bar.   I sat as far away from everyone as I could.  I was watching an awesome blonde guy behind the bar.  He was all I could focus on, he filled me with such feelings.  The sleazy guy came over and I asked him to leave me alone.  He saw where I was focused and went to the bar to tell the bartender.  The bartender had been watching me also.  He came over and asked me to stay till closing and to not leave.  I agreed.  After the bar closed down the bartender and I spent hours talking at the bottom bar.  Then he took me to his place.  I was stunned.  This person seemed to know what I felt, what I needed.  My world was changing and I did not even know it.  The person behind the bar, the bartender was Ron.   

Well I am wrung out.  This is long and it drained me to write it, to remember it, to experience it again.  But it also felt good.  It feels like a boil that just got lanced.  It hurt bad before, it still hurts , but the pressure of it is less.  I know people will want to respond and even ask questions.  That is OK, I am ready for it I think.  I think in some ways it would be helpful.  I can answer at my own pace and do what I need to protect myself, which I can’t do verbally.  If you have read this far, you are a kind generous person.   Thank you.   Hugs

 

The professional bigot’s actions and speech cannot be condoned, but it’s possible to understand where it comes from

Source: I recognize that furious, screaming child that lives inside Milo Yiannopoulos – The Globe and Mail

November 20, 2016

Evolutionary Biology Explains Why Masturbation is Good For You | Inverse

Filed under: Health, Ideas, Nature, Reason, Sex — Scottie @ 15:34

I jsut want to say as for the end of the article…I never was good with the idea of self displine.   🙂  giggle giggle  Hugs

And your palms won’t be any hairier for it.

Source: Evolutionary Biology Explains Why Masturbation is Good For You | Inverse

July 22, 2016

RNC So Gay: Male Escorts Rake It In and Craigslist Sees Surge in Hook-Up Ads – Towleroad

Filed under: News, Political, Questions, Sex — Scottie @ 12:06

Cleveland has been teaming with gay sex ever since the Republican National Convention came to town, according to reports.

Source: RNC So Gay: Male Escorts Rake It In and Craigslist Sees Surge in Hook-Up Ads – Towleroad

July 17, 2016

New IDF Chief Rabbi Says Soldiers Can Rape Arab Women To Boost Morale

Filed under: Asshole / Jerk, Harm, News, Religion, Sex — Scottie @ 13:36

“Col. Karim’s ruling on permitting raping non-Jewish women is similar to the fatwa of a murderous organization that’s not so far from Israel’s borders.”, Arab, IDF, Israel, judiasim, Palestine, rabbi, rape,

Source: New IDF Chief Rabbi Says Soldiers Can Rape Arab Women To Boost Morale

June 29, 2016

OK, who let their boyfriend out after feeding time ???

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Stop the Hate: 49 Celebrities Honor 49 Victims of Orlando Tragedy in Ryan Murphy-Produced Tribute – YouTube

What It’s Like to Be a Teenage Sex Offender

Filed under: Children, Ideas, News, Questions, Sex, Youth — Scottie @ 08:11

As if teenagers didn’t have enough to deal with already.

Source: What It’s Like to Be a Teenage Sex Offender

I am always bothered by what can land you on the sex offenders list, with all its restrictions and never ending punishments.   A while ago I posted about a teen boy who killed himself because he was put on the sex offenders list for streaking.     Another boy killed himself because he got put on it for something he did as a Preteen!  He couldn’t put up with all the things he was required to do, and I posted it because what they forced this early teen boy to do was child abuse to me.   When you think of the registry you think of a 40 or 50 year old man having sex with a 12 year old girl.   Or maybe a 12 year old boy.  The fact is that is not the case in a lot of the time.   I have read of people who took a pee outside and got on the list.  I have done that… driving on a road with no rest areas, pull over run behind a tree.  Well that can get you on the sex offenders regestry.  Well here is another interesting article to read on the crazy parts of the registry.    Hugs

June 28, 2016

Is Donald Trump a Friend to “The Gays”? – YouTube

Filed under: Asshole / Jerk, Bigotry, Harm, History, Homosexual, News, Political, Questions, Religion, Sex — Scottie @ 17:27

June 11, 2016

Blackout: Pakistan – YouTube

Filed under: Bigotry, Gender, Harm, Homosexual, Political, Questions, Religion, Sad, Sex — Scottie @ 22:23

This is a hard video to watch, but it is well worth it. Several very important things are talked about. First the idea that should concern all of us, in the video the cleric and politicians are trying to impose and force everyone to live under their religious laws as the clerks see them. No exceptions no having a different view. sound familiar? It really should, because that what the fundamentalist, the extremists, and all the religious leaders that want to repeal all advances in human rights to force every one to live by their version of their personal religious code. To me this is supper scary because this is the same thing that the religious right wants to do in this country. In Muslim countries with Islam as the religion they call the biblical laws “sharia laws”. It means the holy book is the supreme law of the land and everyone must be held to it. Here in the USA many christian groups want to force everyone to do that very same thing, to live by their religious views, only their views, and you have no say in your life but are forced a point of the gun of law, religious law, to follow them. That is simply christian sharia law. Yet while the people like Ralph Reed, Pat of the 700 club, Bryan Fisher an the AFA, or any of the religious groups that spout hate and lies to pretend they are not bigots, just saving the children. These groups are a huge threat to liberty in this country, not same sex marriage, not non discrimination laws, but the idea that they want to restrict your rights, your freedoms, your every thought and deed to conform to their personal view of one religion. Not to mention there are I read 1400 different christian sects, which every single one says they are the only true on , the only religion and they all insist you be forced to follow them.

Second on the punishment they hand out.. seems barbaric and horrible to us right? We are an enlighten society. However several republican members of our own congress have called for similar measures against law abiding gay citizen. Yes our own congress and many states have tried to pass laws that call for prison or other harm to people who are gay. One congress person wanted to quarantine all gays on an island. How many times have we heard a jerk in power say that being gay was the same as a child steamroller and that only gays spread disease, and my favorite, all the hurricanes and natural “act of God” happenings are the fault of gays as god is giving us warnings to get rid of those gay people. How much is done to pander to their base, I don’t know , but as a gay man who has fought all my life for the simple freedoms and rights every tone straight person has, I can tell you how scary these religious groups are. So lets remind all those people who try to make us live by their religion that it is called sharia law, the very same things they are so against when it is another religious trying to enforce it.

One last thing, if your talking to someone and they say the founding fathers were deeply religious, they were tight with god and they wanted god involved with everything, and that they founded this country to be a christian nation, and that they wanted everyone to be deep in the christian faith, tell them they are full of shit. Tell them to stop getting their history for the waked out answers in genesis web site. Go look at the truth and you will find that your church school or home schooling fanatic mom did not tell you the truth. OK I am not going to drag this out, there is so much more to say, but dealing and refuting these jerks is a full time job in it self. Many hugs to all and best wishes.

May 18, 2016

Web Extra: Cherisse’s Story | Full Frontal with Samantha Bee | TBS – YouTube

Filed under: Criminal, Harm, News, Political, Questions, Religion, Science, Sex — Scottie @ 15:17

This shows clearly how the anti-choice groups act. This is their version of helping the woman in need. They have no problem with lies, they have no feeling they need to tell the truth. No these groups, mostly religious sponsored groups feel they can do anything they wish as long as they get what they want out of it. Hurt others, harm them , these groups that claim the moral high ground simply don’t care. Hugs

May 17, 2016

For Ark, dang the boy spider is so small compared with the female spider… Oh pictures of spiders. Sorry

Filed under: Nature, Science, Sex — Scottie @ 20:42

Darwin’s bark spiders have oral sex. Every male that researchers have studied routinely salivated onto the females’ genitals up to 100 times before, during, and after copulation. Source

May 16, 2016

Potty Police

Filed under: Bigotry, Children, Gender, News, Political, Questions, Religion, Sex — Scottie @ 17:09

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May 3, 2016

Prep football player charged with felony for exposing himself in team photo | | USA Today High School Sports

Filed under: News, Political, Questions, Reason, Sex, Youth — Scottie @ 16:50

File this under: High school pranks gone wrong. Terribly wrong. Red Mountain (Mesa, Ariz.) senior linebacker Hunter Osborn, 19, faces 70 charges for exposing himself in a football team photo that a…

Source: Prep football player charged with felony for exposing himself in team photo | | USA Today High School Sports

A good friend sent this to me. Again this shows how our country has run right off the rails on the subject of nudity, body parts, genitalia, human bodies, and anything deal with sex. This also shows how crazy the sex offenders registry is getting. this country acts as though no one has seen even their own body parts , much less someone else’s. Look anyone with an internet connection has seen all body parts. No one has ever been traumatized and permanently harmed by just seeing a small part of genitalia. We are nuts in this country with how we deal with the human body, nudity, and yes sex. look at all the crazy stuff over transgendered people using the bathrooms they feel is appropriate to their situation. It is all hysteria and lies, and totally one sided and wrong. Other industrial countries have a much better attitude towards the human body and nudity. The way some people go on about the subject seems to hysterical and far from reality. Plus the idea of the useless and increasing punishing offender registry used for something like this is beyond stupid, it ruins what the registry was originally set up to be. How can it be used seriously when a streaker who no one really saw anything is on the list, or what a young person doing consensual sexting. Or a person who goes behind a tree to pee…and then is on the sexual offenders registry. This boy will have his whole life ruined, for a small harmless prank..and trust me, it was small as no one noticed until some one pointed it out. I am so saddened at the stupidity of the people in the legal system in this country, the stupidity of those making the laws, and the hate/fear we seem to have against our own bodies. Sad hugs

April 23, 2016

I Won’t last a day without you – Carpenters – YouTube

Filed under: Family, Health, News, Reason, Science, Sex, Song — Scottie @ 21:26

I post this for my wonderful husband Ron. We went for a walk and he did not show any irritation when I couldn’t go farther and just barely made it home, in fact he was worried about. He will go out later when I am asleep I think and do more walking, but I was not able to continue, my hips ached and every step was a sharp pain. That is just one of the very smallest reasons I love him. The fact is he is grand, and he doesn’t fit any mold you would like to put him in. I can not begin to sing the many praises this man deserves. Hugs.

April 9, 2016

A Trump Rally Visitor

Filed under: Bigotry, Criminal, Harm, Political, Questions, Religion, Sex — Scottie @ 14:54

The following was written by a young man named Jordan Ray Correll after he and his friend visited a tRump rally in Fayetteville, NC.  It is such a powerful narrative I felt it needed a wider audien…

Source: A Trump Rally Visitor

This is from Nan’s blog, one I love and learn much from. This post made me even sure that the hate in this country is getting overwhelming and people like me , who love peace, kindness, tolerance for difference, and willing to hug. I am not sure how to counter all the hate I see from some people these days. I look at these hate driven anti-LGBT bills, these “bathrooms bills” the “freedom of religion to hate on one group bills” and I wonder, what will turn these people around, what will bring the country together again instead of tearing us into separate groups. I feel like we are repeating the problem of the states like Israel and the Palestinians, the Serbs and Croatians. Is that where we want this country to go. It comes from fear, I watch the older white people who are use to white privileges and it unnerves me. I watch those who are so drastic on the fundamentalist religious shows claim the most hateful things simply because they hate the idea of sex in a way different than they get it. The sad part is people Like Denis Hastert. A man who campaigned on family values, who made a career of the line against gays and their sex, called gays child molesters and such, it now comes out he was abusing teens as their coach. I am so sadden by the hate we have coming from so places. Hugs

January 27, 2016

Pastor Makes Congregants Suck His Privates In Church, Says It Has Holy Milk Which Will Heal Members | The Southern Daily

Filed under: Children, Criminal, Harm, News, Questions, Religion, Sex — Scottie @ 16:44

Source: Pastor Makes Congregants Suck His Privates In Church, Says It Has Holy Milk Which Will Heal Members | The Southern Daily

“Holy shit Batman”, said Robin, as he pulled his panties back up… What is the matter with these people. Do they live in Flint MI and have lead in the water? How do people fall for this stuff, adults even. I could see a kid being overwhelmed with a priest saying this stuff, and even a kid would protest. But full adults saying, OK, I know all about sex, and took sex education in school and know what really comes….OH right.. No sex education, no biology , no human sexuality is taught today in school mostly because the religious people fight against it. So is that why they fight against it, because they don’t want Robin to know what really what happens at night when he has a funny feeling while sleeping and wakes up sticky and wet. Despite Batman telling him it was a thing the Joker did to him and Batman needs to check in his little panties again. Just to be safe Robin, you know.

OK joking aside, this really is not a joking matter. Did he do this just to female parishioners? Did God order him to deliver his “holy milk” to men or children? What about the children!!! It is clear to me this guy has a mental issue, or is a really nuts con man. What makes this so bad is he got away with it because of religion. If not for that no one would have even taken him seriously, they wouldn’t have done what he asked, he would have been thrashed and dealt with right away. He got away with it because he was an authority figure… a preacher, a holy man, a man of GOD! So as people are taught to never question god, they are taught to never question God’s chosen spokesperson, the one who tells little Timmy it is OK to take off his pants and close his eyes…and it is Gods will so ignore the hurt for a while. DAMN !!! See if God is speaking and you can’t question god, and the thing being asked is …… well shit I can’t even type it anymore I am getting so upset. I hope this guy did not go after kids. But this is why we need to have the understanding to question, always question. Got to go, need to center my self, got far to upset on this one. Sorry. Hugs

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