Scotties Toy Box

February 17, 2020

John Anderson: The Long Black Veil

Filed under: Criminal, Gender, Questions, Song — Scottie @ 19:53

I am starting to have a dark path right now and not sure what to do.   On my other computer I have been wading through some dark political theories.   I was trying to keep up beat, but now admit I am starting to drown in dark places I know I must not go.  Those places lead to self harm.   Yet that is the world we live in and I must report on them.   I am tired.    We must win this fight.   Hugs

 

It is weird I have not felt this strong a need to cut myself in a long time.  I can not explain to those who have never felt the need to do that what it is counter intuitive to deal with hurt to then deliberately hurt your self, that it is so satisfying and so pleasing.  Or should I say so desperately disassociation?  The next day the shame and attempt to cover it it up goes full power.  I left all that behind then tRump got elected and his asshole cult started attacking people with joy.   So here I am again struggling to not do what I know is wrong but yet I am feeling driven to do.   Hugs

John Anderson — Would You Catch A Falling Star

Filed under: Music and Videos, Music Video, Song — Scottie @ 19:11

February 7, 2020

RESPONSE to STATE OF THE UNION 2020 – Um Did He Lie? | Don Caron

December 23, 2019

LITTLE DUFFER BOY – Christmas Parody | Don Caron

Filed under: Criminal, Fascism, Greed, Music Video, News, Political, Questions, Song — Scottie @ 05:52

December 10, 2019

Confounds the Science – (Parody of) Sound of Silence | Don Caron / Linda Gower

Filed under: Funny Stuff, Funny videos, News, Political, Song, Songs and Music — Scottie @ 10:05

December 8, 2019

How the music of our childhood sticks to us.

Filed under: Song — Scottie @ 14:53

 

Long Black Veil by John Anderson & Merle Haggard Lyrics

This is the one I grew up on.   The only music allowed was the Johnny Cash type.   What a eye opener going into the military was for me.   Music was such a new thing.   Hugs

The Long Black Veil

December 2, 2019

Where Do The Children Play?

Filed under: Children, Dealing With Abuse, Family, Harm, My Life and Rants, Questions, Song — Scottie @ 12:49

It is a bad day

When the Children Cry

Filed under: Children, Dealing With Abuse, Family, Harm, My Life and Rants, Sex, Song — Scottie @ 12:38

A bad day

November 22, 2019

R.E.M. – Everybody Hurts (Official Music Video)

I have posted this before but today I need to do so again.   Sorry.  Hugs

October 27, 2019

Disturbed – The Sound Of Silence

Filed under: Music and Videos, Music Video, My Life and Rants, Song, Songs and Music — Scottie @ 20:28

I am tired.  Very tired tonight.  I woke up at 1:30 AM with cramps in my feet and calves, muscle contractions driven by my spine damage affecting the nerves to my lower legs and feet.  I want to be angry at what the chief law officer of my country has done that makes a mocker of everything I served in the military to protect.  I want to be angry.  But instead right now I am crying.   For my self?  For my country?   I just read of the most horrible abuse being done to a minority population in China, and I think my country’s leader has praised the ones responsible for that.  What have we become?  How will history view us, what did we do to prevent the atrocities?  How did we accept them and allow it to progress?  When did mass separation of children from their parents to cause them distress as a tool become OK with the “greatest nation on earth”?  I am tired, good night.  Maybe there will be something, a small place in my dreams I can find peace, find comfort.   Be well, take care of each other, it is all we really have.   Sometimes I think it is closer to our Seasons In The Sun than ever before.   Hugs

Have we not looked away long enough.

Filed under: My Life and Rants, Questions, Song — Scottie @ 19:59

Elvis Presley – In the Ghetto

 

For What It’s Worth by Buffalo Springfield with lyrics

 

Terry Jacks – Seasons In The Sun

October 6, 2019

R.E.M. – Everybody Hurts

Tony of https://tonyburgess1969.net/ posted this with a personal message at https://tonyburgess1969.net/2019/10/06/everybody-hurts-sometimes/ .   I think it is how I feel most of the time also.   Hugs

September 26, 2019

Buffalo Springfield Something’s Happening – For What It’s Worth

Filed under: Music and Videos, Music Video, Sad, Song — Scottie @ 20:11

How to stop the sounds in my head?  How to stop the things I can not stand to think of?  I am getting tired of this battle.  But to win we must soldier.  Best wishes to all.  Hugs

Harry Chapin – Cats in the Cradle

Filed under: Music and Videos, Song — Scottie @ 19:47

Terry Jacks – Seasons In The Sun (Original Video HD)

Filed under: Music and Videos, Song — Scottie @ 19:40

Buffalo Springfield – Stop Children What’s That Sound

Filed under: Music and Videos, Song — Scottie @ 19:35

Big Iron- Marty Robbins

Filed under: Song, Songs and Music — Scottie @ 19:28

Johnny Cash – Don’t Take Your Guns to Town

Filed under: Music and Videos, Song — Scottie @ 19:22

Dixie Chicks – Travelin’ Soldier (Official Video)

Filed under: Music and Videos, Music Video, News, Song, Songs and Music — Scottie @ 19:17

Bo donaldson and the heywoods – billy don’t be a hero (1974) stereo

Filed under: Harm, Music Video, My Life and Rants, Song — Scottie @ 19:08

I was doing well until about 30 minutes ago, then the vortex started.  I did what I know to do, I reached out to handles that are failure to me, something to keep my mind from being taken by the vortex.   Hugs

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