Scotties Toy Box

October 27, 2019

Disturbed – The Sound Of Silence

Filed under: Music and Videos, Music Video, My Life and Rants, Song, Songs and Music — Scottie @ 20:28

I am tired.  Very tired tonight.  I woke up at 1:30 AM with cramps in my feet and calves, muscle contractions driven by my spine damage affecting the nerves to my lower legs and feet.  I want to be angry at what the chief law officer of my country has done that makes a mocker of everything I served in the military to protect.  I want to be angry.  But instead right now I am crying.   For my self?  For my country?   I just read of the most horrible abuse being done to a minority population in China, and I think my country’s leader has praised the ones responsible for that.  What have we become?  How will history view us, what did we do to prevent the atrocities?  How did we accept them and allow it to progress?  When did mass separation of children from their parents to cause them distress as a tool become OK with the “greatest nation on earth”?  I am tired, good night.  Maybe there will be something, a small place in my dreams I can find peace, find comfort.   Be well, take care of each other, it is all we really have.   Sometimes I think it is closer to our Seasons In The Sun than ever before.   Hugs

Have we not looked away long enough.

Filed under: My Life and Rants, Questions, Song — Scottie @ 19:59

Elvis Presley – In the Ghetto

 

For What It’s Worth by Buffalo Springfield with lyrics

 

Terry Jacks – Seasons In The Sun

October 6, 2019

R.E.M. – Everybody Hurts

Tony of https://tonyburgess1969.net/ posted this with a personal message at https://tonyburgess1969.net/2019/10/06/everybody-hurts-sometimes/ .   I think it is how I feel most of the time also.   Hugs

September 26, 2019

Buffalo Springfield Something’s Happening – For What It’s Worth

Filed under: Music and Videos, Music Video, Sad, Song — Scottie @ 20:11

How to stop the sounds in my head?  How to stop the things I can not stand to think of?  I am getting tired of this battle.  But to win we must soldier.  Best wishes to all.  Hugs

Harry Chapin – Cats in the Cradle

Filed under: Music and Videos, Song — Scottie @ 19:47

Terry Jacks – Seasons In The Sun (Original Video HD)

Filed under: Music and Videos, Song — Scottie @ 19:40

Buffalo Springfield – Stop Children What’s That Sound

Filed under: Music and Videos, Song — Scottie @ 19:35

Big Iron- Marty Robbins

Filed under: Song, Songs and Music — Scottie @ 19:28

Johnny Cash – Don’t Take Your Guns to Town

Filed under: Music and Videos, Song — Scottie @ 19:22

Dixie Chicks – Travelin’ Soldier (Official Video)

Filed under: Music and Videos, Music Video, News, Song, Songs and Music — Scottie @ 19:17

Bo donaldson and the heywoods – billy don’t be a hero (1974) stereo

Filed under: Harm, Music Video, My Life and Rants, Song — Scottie @ 19:08

I was doing well until about 30 minutes ago, then the vortex started.  I did what I know to do, I reached out to handles that are failure to me, something to keep my mind from being taken by the vortex.   Hugs

September 24, 2019

Bill Withers – Lean On Me

I spent about 2 hours today crying, breath ceasing red faced tears running down my face.  I hurt.  I hurt from the memories I have.  I can not change them, the past is what it is.  I am very lucky I do have an out.  I could have gone to the bedroom and gotten Ron.  I have a wonderful adoptive brother, something I never had during my  childhood when I was being abused,  he works long hard hours but he keeps his phone on for me even when he gets his few hours of sleep.  When I was so depressed and upset back in 2014 /2015 I was back to self harming my self ( something I still want to do some days ) he would call me every 4 to 8 hours to make sure I was OK.  That is family .  Something I never had growing up.  One of the persons I grew up with use to laugh at me being a 5  / 6 year old sitting alone on a embankment asking “why it was always me”.   She never released what she thought was funny was really an indictment of what she and others were doing to me.  I was already being sexually abused and beaten.  “Why was it always me”, asks a five / six year old?  That should have raised questions everywhere.  When in 1st grade the school pressed charges of child abuse ( I have written of this before ) the people I lived with took me out of school, then moved to a different state, then moved a gain in a few months to another town in a first state.  This was in the 1960’s.  There was no follow up, even though I had been taken to the local hospital and examined.   It was if no questions had been raised, and the abuse continued.  So today  the memories make me cry.  Hugs

Bill Withers – Lean On Me

September 16, 2019

Wildwood Weed (Jim Stafford) w/ lyrics

Filed under: Funny Stuff, Music and Videos, News, Song — Scottie @ 11:45

August 7, 2019

Moscow Mitch The Ballad

Filed under: Criminal, Fascism, Greed, Harm, Music Video, News, Political, Questions, Song, Songs and Music — Scottie @ 15:42

July 21, 2019

New world in the morning

Filed under: My Life and Rants, Song — Scottie @ 17:58

I am having a bad day.  I am battling my past ( those that read my blog understand ) I am also in a lot of pain ( again those that read my blog know my spine is a huge problem ) and to top it off my hubby gave me a bunch of files to shred for him.  To say I am having a problem is an understatement.   Who would have thought saying American is not the US would have such a virulent response.   It seems the US population doesn’t know about the continent of America.   Any way in an attempt ( a bit poorly ) to hold my sanity together, here is a song.  Hugs

July 11, 2019

Pat Benatar – Hell Is for Children – Live 2001

Filed under: Children, Criminal, Dealing With Abuse, Family, Harm, Sad, Song, Songs and Music — Scottie @ 06:16

May 30, 2019

Michael Jackson Tribute – Heal The World – Child Prodigy Cover | Maati Baani

April 17, 2019

Disturbed – A Reason To Fight

Filed under: Music and Videos, Music Video, News, Song, Songs and Music — Scottie @ 15:51

 

“A Reason To Fight”

The image in your eyes, reflecting the pain that has taken you
I hear it in your voice so ridden with shame from what’s ailing you

I won’t give up, so don’t give in
You’ve fallen down but you can rise again
So don’t give up

When the demon that’s inside you is ready to begin
And it feels like it’s a battle that you will never win
When you’re aching for the fire and begging for your sin
When there’s nothing left inside, there’s still a reason to fight

Lost in your world of lies I find it so hard to believe in you
Can it be real this time, or just a part of this game that we’re playing through

I won’t give up, so don’t give in
You’ve fallen down but you will rise again
I won’t give up

When the demon that’s inside you is ready to begin
And it feels like it’s a battle that you will never win
When you’re aching for the fire and begging for your sin
When there’s nothing left inside, there’s still a reason to fight

Don’t let it take your soul
Look at me, take control
We’re going to fight this war
This is nothing worth dying for

Are you ready to begin
This is a battle that we are gonna win

When you’re aching for the fire and begging for your sin
When there’s nothing left inside, there’s still a reason

When the demon that’s inside you is ready to begin
And it feels like it’s a battle that you will never win
When you’re aching for the fire and begging for your sin
When there’s nothing left inside, there’s still a reason to fight
I’ll be your reason to fight
Give you a reason to fight

 

April 12, 2019

Reba McEntire – Fancy

Filed under: Music and Videos, Music Video, Song, Songs and Music, Things I like — Scottie @ 18:01

Now for a more uplifting depressing song.  Hugs

 

“Fancy”

I remember it all very well lookin’ back
It was the summer I turned eighteen
We lived in a one-room, run-down shack
On the outskirts of New Orleans
We didn’t have money for food or rent
To say the least we were hard-pressed
Then Mama spent every last penny we had
To buy me a dancin’ dress

Mama washed and combed and curled my hair
And she painted my eyes and lips
Then I stepped into a satin dancin’ dress
That had a split on the side clean up to my hip
It was red velvet trim and it fit me good
Standin’ back from the lookin’ glass
There stood a woman where a half-grown kid had stood

She said, “Here’s your one chance, Fancy, don’t let me down.
Here’s your one chance, Fancy, don’t let me down.”

Mama dabbled a little bit of perfume on my neck then she kissed my cheek
And then I saw the tears wellin’ up in her troubled eyes as she started to speak
She looked at a pitiful shack
And then she looked at me and took a ragged breath
She said, “Your Pa’s runned off and I’m real sick,
And the baby’s gonna starve to death.”

She handed me a heart-shaped locket that said,
“To thine own self be true.”
And I shivered as I watched a roach crawl across
The toe of my high-heeled shoe
It sounded like somebody else that was talkin’
Askin’, “Mama, what do I do?”
She said, “Just be nice to the gentlemen, Fancy,
And they’ll be nice to you.”

She said, “Here’s your one chance, Fancy, don’t let me down.
Here’s your one chance, Fancy, don’t let me down.
Lord, forgive me for what I do,
But if you want out, well, it’s up to you
Now don’t let me down
Now your mama’s gonna move you uptown.”

Well, that was the last time I saw my Ma
The night I left that rickety shack
The welfare people came and took the baby
Mama died and I ain’t been back

But the wheels of fate had started to turn
And for me there was no way out
And it wasn’t very long ’til I knew exactly
What my Mama’d been talkin’ about

I knew what I had to do and I made myself this solemn vow
That I’s gonna be a lady someday
Though I didn’t know when or how
But I couldn’t see spending the rest of my life
With my head hung down in shame
You know I might have been born just plain white trash
But Fancy was my name

She said, “Here’s your one chance, Fancy, don’t let me down.”
She said, “Here’s your one chance, Fancy, don’t let me down.”

It wasn’t long after that benevolent man took me in off the street
And one week later I was pourin’ his tea in a five-room hotel suite

I charmed a king, a congressman and an occasional aristocrat
And then I got me a Georgia mansion and an elegant New York townhouse flat
And I ain’t done bad

Now in this world there’s a lot of self-righteous hypocrites
That would call me bad
They criticize Mama for turning me out
No matter how little we had

But though I ain’t had to worry ’bout nothin’ for nigh on fifteen years
Well, I can still hear the desperation in my poor Mama’s voice ringin’ in my ears

“Here’s your one chance, Fancy, don’t let me down.
Here’s your one chance, Fancy, don’t let me down.
Lord, forgive me for what I do
But if you want out well it’s up to you
Now don’t let me down
Now your Mama’s gonna move you uptown.”

Well, I guess she did

 

Reba McEntire – The Night The Lights Went Out In Georgia

Filed under: Music and Videos, Music Video, Song, Songs and Music — Scottie @ 17:40

 

“The Night The Lights Went Out In Georgia”

He was on his way home from Candletop
Been two weeks gone and he thought he’d stop
At Web’s and have him a drink for he went home to her
Andy Wo-Lo said hello
He said “Hi what’s new”
And Wo said “Sit down I got some bad news that’s gonna hurt”
Said I’m your best friend and you know that’s right
But your young bride ain’t home tonight
Since you been gone she’s been seeing that Amos boy Seth
Now, he got mad and he saw red
Andy said boy don’t you lose your head
‘Cause to tell you the truth I’ve been with her myself

That’s the night that the lights went out in Georgia
That’s the night that they hung an innocent man
Well, don’t trust your soul to no backwoods Southern lawyer
Cause the judge in the town’s got bloodstains on his hands

Andy got scared and left the bar
Walkin’ on home cause he didn’t live far you see
Andy didn’t have many friends and he just lost him one
Brother thought his wife must’ve left town
So he went home and finally found the only thing
Daddy had left him and that was a gun
He went off to Andy’s house
Slipping through the backwoods quiet as a mouse
Came upon some tracks too small for Andy to make

He looked through the screen at the back porch door
And he saw Andy lyin’ on the floor
In a puddle of blood and he started to shake

Georgia patrol was making their rounds
So he fired a shot just to flag em down
A big bellied sheriff grabbed his gun and said
“Why’d you do it?”

The judge said guilty on a make-believe trial
Slapped the sheriff on the back with a smile
Said supper’s waitin’ at home and I gotta get to it

That’s the night the lights went out in Georgia
That’s the night that they hung an innocent man
Well, don’t trust your soul to no backwoods Southern lawyer
Cause the judge in the town’s got bloodstains on his hands

Well, they hung my brother before I could say
The tracks he saw while on his way
To Andy’s house and back that night were mine
And his cheatin’ wife had never left town
That’s one body that’ll never be found
You see little sister don’t miss when she aims her gun

That’s the night the lights went out in Georgia
That’s the night that they hung an innocent man
Well, don’t trust your soul to no backwoods Southern lawyer
Cause the judge in the town’s got bloodstains on his hands

That’s the night the lights went out in Georgia
That’s the night that they hung an innocent man
Well, don’t trust your soul to no backwoods Southern lawyer
Cause the judge in the town’s got bloodstains on his hands

 

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